So it is finally here! Just when I was about to break, just when I couldn't handle another day of hearing nothing, just when I needed Him most, God showed up with a court date! A year and a half ago we knew Joshua was our son and we couldn't wait for the day he was in our arms. The days have passes like molasses and increasingly gotten more and more painful as they slipped away. At the time we were matched with him, we were told to be prepared to leave any day or to wait indefinitely. Our hopeful hearts never wanted to believe we would be on the "waiting indefinitely" side of things. But He is a God of last minutes and I praise Him for testing me far beyond what I would have thought I was capable. (He certainly thinks more of me than I do!)
When Joseph was in prison, after accurately interpreting the dreams of his two cellmates, he said to the one being set free "Don't forget me! Tell Pharaoh about me! DONT FORGET ME!!" and yet 2 years went by with no recognition, the same 4 walls, the same dirt floor, the same unanswered question... "Why, God?". Joseph had been completely forgotten... but only by man. God was doing a good work in him and needed to see it to completion, and for whatever reason, that "good work" involved being (temporarily) forgotten by man. Why? Possibly with the intent to bring Joseph to his knees, completely reliant on the King of kings? Possibly with the intent to humble Joseph, lest he boast as if his life and abilities were his own? Or possibly with the intent to bless others who would follow, and be encouraged by God's triumph over his sufferings? Whatever the purpose, Joseph had no one but His heavenly father left. Man had failed him, but God would be glorified when he revealed Josephs great purpose years later.
I will not dare to claim a "great purpose" in the suffering I have endured from being seperated from my child. My anguish pales in comparison to what other have and continue to endure! However I trust that my Heavenly Father will not allow my pain to be fruitless. I will praise Him as I "count my suffering as pure joy". And the day that I finally meet my precious child and hold him in my arms, I will whisper words of truth to him. I will tell him he was never forgotten. I will tell him he has a great and wonderful purpose. I will tell him who he is and Who's he is; the child of the living King... Prince Joshua!
When Joseph was in prison, after accurately interpreting the dreams of his two cellmates, he said to the one being set free "Don't forget me! Tell Pharaoh about me! DONT FORGET ME!!" and yet 2 years went by with no recognition, the same 4 walls, the same dirt floor, the same unanswered question... "Why, God?". Joseph had been completely forgotten... but only by man. God was doing a good work in him and needed to see it to completion, and for whatever reason, that "good work" involved being (temporarily) forgotten by man. Why? Possibly with the intent to bring Joseph to his knees, completely reliant on the King of kings? Possibly with the intent to humble Joseph, lest he boast as if his life and abilities were his own? Or possibly with the intent to bless others who would follow, and be encouraged by God's triumph over his sufferings? Whatever the purpose, Joseph had no one but His heavenly father left. Man had failed him, but God would be glorified when he revealed Josephs great purpose years later.
I will not dare to claim a "great purpose" in the suffering I have endured from being seperated from my child. My anguish pales in comparison to what other have and continue to endure! However I trust that my Heavenly Father will not allow my pain to be fruitless. I will praise Him as I "count my suffering as pure joy". And the day that I finally meet my precious child and hold him in my arms, I will whisper words of truth to him. I will tell him he was never forgotten. I will tell him he has a great and wonderful purpose. I will tell him who he is and Who's he is; the child of the living King... Prince Joshua!
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